Sunday, October 3, 2010


My sister posted a challenge and I meant to take her up on it.  I just didn't know what I was going to say.  This might sound like I'm starting out negatively, but bare with me.  My whole life I've struggled with feeling dumb.  No, not dumb, unable to spell.  I let it hold me back.  I've always felt like there's a spelling monster that lives inside my head.  It jumbles everything up.  I know what I want to say, but taking what's in my head and putting it on paper (or a computer screen) has always been difficult for me.  I have to work twice as hard as the "average" person.  I've always treated it like a dirty little secret.  

So, I have a "learning handicap."  I guess since my dad and my brother both had one, I knew it wasn't my fault.  I knew it wasn't something I could control.  I knew that I was "smart" I just couldn't spell.  But I was still afraid to really apply myself.  I was afraid someone would find out and judge me.  I know, stupid right?  Either way, it's the truth.  But because of it I learned how to make the other parts of myself that "worked right" excel or shine.  I had to compensate for my lack of spelling.

My whole life, people have been drawn to me.  Always.  My husband calls it my charisma.  I guess that's what you could call it?  People have always wanted to hear what I had to say.  (Okay, maybe not on my blog, I'm much more personable in person).  But for what ever reason, people have always wanted to be around me.  I'm fun.  I've always been the life of the party!  Honestly I just wanted to be having fun.  So I was always "entertaining"!  It's what I do, it's what I love.  Making people laugh and smile.  It's honestly one of my greatest joys.  My friend once told me I was infectious, she meant it as a compliment.  She said I have a passion for life and it makes people want to be around me.

I have a way with the little people.  I always have.  I love children and they love me.  (I love everything other than their dirty little hands).  I love the way they think.  They're honest and funny.  They look at life through simple eyes.  They see the good in people.  They love without judgment.  For whatever reason I can relate to them.  I have patience with little people that I don't have with adults.  I should be working with them.

I'm a crocheting master.  Yes, that's like Jedi Master, but I work with yarn!  Ha!  I can crochet anything.  If there's a pattern, I can make it.  If there's not a pattern, I can figure out how to make my own.  When I was a long distance operator the older women would crochet while we worked.  I wanted to learn.  So one day I bought me some yarn and crochet needles, and asked the women to teach me what they were doing.  The rest as they say was history.  It's a talent I love sharing.  I make baby blankets, they are my passion.  

I was meant for public speaking, talking in general.  I love to speak in front of a crowd.  Weird I know, but I love the attention.  I'm good at it.  It goes back to entertaining people.  I'm not afraid to ask anyone anything.  My mom always told me, the worst thing someone can tell you is no, or HELL NO.  So I'm bold.  It's definitely a talent.  I've learned not everyone can do this.      

I'm also a bitch, a sarcastic one.  Ha!  Not everyone can call that a talent.  But I can.  

Is cleaning a talent?  If it is, I'm also a Master Jedi at this as well.  I actually love doing laundry.

I'm very creative.  I love making scrapbooks and posters.  Anything like that!

I wanted to do this posting, because I've honestly been doing a lot of growing lately.  I've been inspired to try and be the best Buffee I can be.  I'm still working on it.  Lord knows I fall short most of the time.  But I have a great heart and I mean well.  I'm learning each and everyday that my happiness is only about me.  I mean it's only about Buffee's successes and what I achieve in my life.  There's no reason to compare what I have or what I do, based on what someone else has or does.  I think that this is a "talent" I'm learning to cultivate.  Happiness.  It's a talent that not everyone has.  I think you truly have to want to be happy and decide for yourself to just do it.  Choose to be happy.  Anyway, that's my story and I'm sticking to it!

So thanks sissy.  For making me take a look at myself and focus on the positives, again.  It's something I've been working on personally anyway, but this was a great way to reinforce it!    


June said...

Bravo Buffee!
*Standing ovation*claps hands*

Well said, indeed.

adrienzgirl said...

This post was AWESOME! I wouldn't worry about spelling anymore. It can't hold you back, hell, they don't even really mark off for spelling in school anymore. SPELL CHECK works for that. *sigh*

You are a very talented woman and I am glad you are owning it!! Love You!

gayle said...

Good for you for writing this post!! You are a wonderful writer!!! I have felt and (still do) the same way about myself. I would have a hard time writing this post. You have done an awesome job!!

Mo 'Betta said...

awww, this was an awesome (and inspiring) post! I'm glad I read it!